Dumb Superheroes

I don't know what some of those superheroes were thinking...being invisible sucks.

There comes a time in every girl's life when no matter how hard you try to stop liking him, you simply can't help it. Each of us have known that boy who makes life better just by smiling, for whom we would wait hours if only to catch a second of eye contact with him. But unfortunately he's also the one we think is so far out of our league; the one we put up on a shelf and label "untouchable." For some reason we can't see anything but his perfection, and our lack thereof. You try and try to be noticeable whether it's through personality, humor, looks, you name it; but in the end you remain invisible. And that thought drives us crazy-how do we have such an easy time making friends, an easy time gaining the respect of adults and love of children, yet he still doesn't know we exist?
And then there's the competition. That girl who makes your self esteem drop ten points merely by breathing. She smiles at all the right times, bats her eyelashes an inordinate amount, and never seems to have a single hair out of place. Never a blemish on her perfectly even suntanned skin, and she must just live at the gym.
Why do we put ourselves in these situations? Why do we let us ourselves want more than we deserve or even dare to compare with those far more valuable prospects?

I think these thoughts on a daily basis, and mostly on Sundays when I fidget around not knowing what to do with myself or where to sit, etc. and I can barely remember the reason I am there in the first place because something far more distracting is commanding my attention.

...and in the midst of this war of looks and personality and flirting and competition, I have to constantly tell myself... If he really knew what he was missing, he wouldn't settle for anything else.
To all my girls out there; tell yourselves the same thing the next time you find yourself being "invisible."Because it's true :)

Racing Sea Turtles

I fell asleep on the couch again...slept in until 9 again. (surprise) I dreamt that I was a few years older, a few years wiser, and a few pounds lighter. When I awoke I thought, "I should go for a run today." First I went over all the reasons I should do it, then I went over all the reasons I didn't really feel like it, then I went over all the more interesting things I could be doing with my time, and the list went on... and on. 11 o'clock rolled around, I was eating applesauce and sitting on the couch typing up an article for the paper-the glass door to my left was letting in the beautiful Hawaiian sunlight, and I remembered my earlier idea to exercise. I thought, "Oh but I'm so entangled in this article, I just HAVE to finish it!"....12 o'clock rolled around, now I was paying bills, listening to country, and contemplating painting my nails. The idea struck me again and I fought it off with, "Well high-noon is a bad time to be out in the sun... I'd get 3rd degree burns."...1 o'clock rolled around, and I had finally exhausted my excuses. My roommates were all gone and I had no distractions, my rear end was numb from sitting down, and that beautiful sun was just begging me to come out and play. I sighed a sorrowful sigh, then slowly walked to my room and changed into my running shorts. I grabbed my ipod and armband, and dragged my feet outside.

I dropped my water bottle and towel at the end of Temple Beach so I'd have something to come back to...I steadily gained enthusiasm for the upcoming exercise, it's surprising what just being out in the sun can do for you. I turned the volume up as the Fugees got my blood pumping, and I started to run.

I made it past the Temple and Hukilau beaches and took a break to watch some kite boarders do their thing. While so doing, I saw a shadow moving on the water. At first I thought it was a log or something, and then over the next wave I saw a small head pop up. It was a beautiful baby sea turtle! I watched her float in the water for a few moments, and then I resumed my run. And out of the corner of my eye I saw the turtle (whom I named Shelly) swimming the same direction I was running! I was able to keep pace with her pretty well for the first....like minute and a half... and then she disappeared into the deep blue. I stopped and saw my new surroundings, and realized I hadn't been that far along the beach before.

After racing with a sea turtle, hopefully it won't take me as long to get out of the house tomorrow.
What a beatiful day this was, what beautiful places I saw, what a lovely friend I met :)

Meant To Be Roomies :)

I often wonder who I associated with before I came to earth. When we all were waiting for the grand plan to be presented, who were we chatting with? Who were our confidants and kindred spirits? Of all the people I'm surrounded with on this earth, who did I specifically ask my Heavenly Father to place in my life? I know I begged Him to give me 6 of my coolest guy friends and 5 of my closest girlfriends to grow up with; 2 of my very best friends to raise me, and a myriad of others who would make my journey in this life easier to bear. There have been so many people who have left footprints on my heart, but since I came to Hawaii I have met 4 girls who I know I must have met before...
They are among the sweetest, most giving and understanding girls I have ever known- and I'm honored to call them my friends. Here's a shout-out to my homies: Ashley Shaum, Courtney McAffee, Ashley Flake, and Kristine Magnusson. Thanks for being you :)
LOVE YOU GIRLS!!!!!